Decisions.

It always happens the same.  The moment someone walks out of my life, everyone that had previously walked out returns.  It's like they have some batcall type thing that just screams "Hey! Steph is single, vulernable, and is to the point where she's not caring anymore, go eff up her life a little bit more, give her some more options of eff ups."  So, it wouldn't exactly say that, but it seems like it does.  The moment something ends, past interests decide they want another chance.  This is a huge problem with T.B., and a few others, but we'll keep them nameless.  I despise him, but he's one of my favorite people on this earth.  Never did I think that I could love someone I also hated.  He's a great dude, but he also is notorious for walking out of my life when I need him most, and walking back in when  I would rather just not have him anywhere near me.  This is one of those points.  If he were to walk back in at this point, it would probably not be a good thing.  I'm moving on, and I know he's going to do something to eff it up for me.  He's going to walk back in at the point when I finally get things back on track for myself. 
I love him, I know I do, but I don't think I want him back in my life right about now. 
Honestly, I don't know. He is one of those people that always has me thinking.