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Have you ever just wanted to give up on something, but didn't have the mental strenght to do so?  That's where I'm starting to believe I'm at.  It feels as though I'm stuck inside a never ending boxing match, and I just keep taking the face and chest blows.  My question, when will it end?  When will I have the mental strenght to say no more, to just say I'm done? Everyone keeps telling me, "He's not worth it, he doesn't love you, and he certainly doesn't care about you."  They don't see the T.B. that I do.  They don't read every text message, and they don't see the way he stares into my eyes when it's just us.  They're not there for the long, life conversations, and they're not there when he tells me he loves me.  So, when they say the terrible things, I know in my heart, they aren't true.
After I give that arguement, some start into the "He's a pill addict, all he does is drugs, and drink.  He is one of the dumbest people I know.  He isn't going to amount to anything, so why waste your time?"  For that, all I can say is watch him. He's not a pill addict, he does amazing in school, and yeah he drinks, but so what?  He will amount to something, just watch him, he's going into the marines, and he's going to make something of himself, I can only hope so. There's days I think he's not going to amount to anything, and there's things he does that makes me believe all the hoopla, but then I go back to the whole "T.B. is an amazing person, and he tells it like it is" deal.  It may take him awhile, but he knows what he wants, and he's going to achieve it, and he may mess up a lot, but if you only knew him, you'd understand.  He's had it hard, he's seen it all, and been through it all.  So before you go and judge him, stfu, and don't.