Letter of passion

Zane,
Stupid. That's all you are.  Incompentent, ignorant, pointless, and all around worthless.  It's all you'll ever be!!  I never thought it would be you. Tearing me down, ripping my heart to shreds, when I was at my lowest point.  it's unforgivable, and yet you still believe you have a shot at getting me back.  Putty in your dark, long, freakish hands, that's what you think of me! For so long I was, I was the one that always came back, the one that always begged for forgivness, not anymore. The tables are turned, and I'm in the fast lane.  I'm moving at maxiunm speeds, towards the sky, far away from your heartless grasp.  There's nothing more I want, than to believe you, to forget it all, to just pretend like it never happened and lay in your warm embrace once more.  This letter isn't exactly understandable, it's what I feel, and all I feel.  It's what I think about day to day, every minute of every waking hour!  You'll never know what it feels like to feel the pain I've endured, the pain that kept me up for hours, ripping into my once light, happy soul.  Fury, fury is most of what makes up my feelings for you. Love? Oh, it's there too, it's hibernating. Sleeping away, trying not to be found, trying to be unexposed  from anyones view who could use it against me.  Mostly you. If you only knew my true feelings for you, you could use it against me in the upmost horrible possible way. I let you past. Past the walls I so graciously built to keep you out, to keep anyone out!  Those walls were my safe-haven, my safety blanket, the only feeling of security I had left, and you took it.  That beautiful smile, those piercing eyes, the way you made me melt just by talking.  I guess what I'm trying to say is, yes I'll take you back... but then again, I won't.  It should be time to let go.  It should be time to move on, to say eff it, so I'll do it.... This my dear, is goodbye, so long, auf wierdersein, guten tag, or any other possible way there is to say goodbye. 

With love...

Riley Kohl<3